In Hindsight I’ve Been Chicken Shit

This past year has been like nothing I’ve ever experienced, and I know I’m not alone in thinking that. I’m also not alone in saying this year has tested, twisted, tried, and even tormented.

Regardless, this past year was filled with things I’d gotten lost in.

I’ve read and watched more news in 2020 than I have in my entire life. Here’s the deal though, it wasn’t reading or watching the news that was the problem. It’s what I allowed the news to do that was the problem.

I allowed the news to become a distraction. I also allowed it to impact my mindset which resulted in negative diatribes that would spill out of my mouth as a reaction.

I know my diatribes weren’t helping the situation, my mindset, or anyone in earshot, and so choosing not to get lost in the news would’ve been a better option.

I’VE BEEN CHICKEN SHIT

And while I wouldn’t wish what we’ve experienced on anyone, I’m grateful. Grateful, because this past year has forced me to take a good, hard look at myself. It’s made me realize that all the distraction and the negativity were just a symptom of something else…my being chicken shit.

How have I been chicken shit?

I started writing a book that’s currently collecting dust. Why? Because I’ve been too chicken shit to finish it. There are few programs I started as well that are keeping the book company for the same reason… because I’ve been chicken shit.